Remembering Morgan Ann

2009-09-17T07:54:00.000-07:00

I was looking for a poem. And I never found anything that suited this situation. A dear friend of mine found this poem. And its perfect! (Thanks a milion Brittany!!)

I'm just a little baby

who didn't quite make it there;

I went straight to be with Jesus

but I'm waiting for you here.

Don't you fret about me mommy

I'm of all God's most blessed

I'd have loved to stay there with you

but Heavenly Father knows what's best.

Many who dwell here where I live

waited years to enter in,

they struggled through a world of sorrow

and their lives were marred with sin.

So sweet mommy don't be sad,

wipe those tears and chase the gloom,

I went straight to be with Jesus,

from my lovely mothers womb.

Thank you for the life you gave me,

it was brief but don't complain;

I have all of heaven's glory

suffering none of the world's pain.

Thank you for the name you gave me,

I'm thankful for all you've done.

I'll be waiting here for you

in heaven up above.

I would have loved to stay with you,

And lived life by your side,

But the Lord has called me home,

I know it's hard to understand why.

Thank you mommy for making me,

You made me out of love,

I can't wait for the day I see you again

So you can see what I've become.

I'm an angel here in heaven,

The Lord's here by my side,

He wants me to let you know

He's sorry he made you cry.

He has a plan for me up here,

And a plan for you here too,

Someday we'll be together again,

And this I know is true.

Morgan Ann's Birthstory

2009-09-15T10:15:00.000-07:00

(sorry this is long, but it was a long day)

On Monday, around 9:25am, I started to get cramp, (I thought I had to fart) so I kindda pushed the fart out, and went on doing what I was doing. Then about 5 minutes later I got another one. So went to the bathroom and did my business, and I felt a little better, and again went back to doing what I was doing. Well, the cramps started to closer, and I thought to myself "I bet I am just a little dehydrated" because I didn't eat at all yet that morning. So I went and ate some cereal, and as I ate, I started to time my "cramps" first they were every 3 minutes apart, last about 15-20 seconds.

Then by the time I told my mom what was happening, they were every 2 minutes apart, and finally when we got a hold of the Nurse Hotline, they were every 1 minute apart. My doc told me to come up the Hospital ASAP. My Mom and I hopped in the car, and drove 45 minutes to the Hospital.

When we got the Clinic, my doc tried to listen to the heartbeat, but like all the other times she has tried to listen to it, she couldn't find it. (At that time, I still didn't think anything was wrong.) Then she did a cervical exam, and she said that I was pretty much closed, but something was bulging in the middle of my cervix. We went to the Ultrasound room, and the Tech put the transducer on my belly, I could see my little baby wasn't moving. They tried to listen to the heartbeat, but the Tech keep saying she was not in a good position to find it (load of crap). Then the Tech did a quick measurement of the head, and it only measured, 16.4wks. And I started to shake my head "NO." My mom asked me what was wrong, and I said that "The baby should NOT measure that small." The Tech measured the legs, and they measured 18.4wks. Then they did a transvaginal, and my cervix was clearly open, and my baby was no longer thriving inside of me. Before the doctor or tech could say anything to me, I said "She’s gone, isn't she?" And they confirmed that she has passed away about 1-3wks ago. As they finished the ultrasound they said it appears that I had a Placental Abruption. (But after I gave birth, that was NOT the case)

They took me to the Labor and Delivery Floor, and I was put in Room 394. This room has sentimental value. When I was pregnant with Riley, and I was having complications at 17wks, I was in that room for an Examination. Anyways, the Nurses got everything set for me, my mom left to get some lunch, and at the time, I tried to get a hold of Mitchell. I called him for about 45 minutes, and couldn't get him to answer his phone. So I laid down on my bed, and tried to breathe thru the contractions, by that time they were less than a minute apart and very strong. I asked for the Newbane to get some relief, but they couldn’t find a vein to put it in, so by the time they finally got it inserted, I was already pushing. I pushed very gently for about 5 minutes, and at 1:55PM, my Angel was born. She was 3.5oz and 7.5 inches. And at that exact same time, Mitch called me. I told him that our Angel had just been born. He was in total and complete shock.

She was still in her bag of water, when she was born. Her delivery couldn't have been better. My doctor feared I would have to have a D&C, but everything came out. My doctor was able to get Ammonic Fluid, as well as Placental Tissue, for testing to see what was wrong with her. As they cut the water bag open, it was very clear what was wrong with Morgan Ann. She has a severe Cleft Lip and Cleft Palette. Her two middle fingers, on both hands, we still fused together. Her ears and eyes didn't line up, which is a sign of Down Syndrome. And her umbilical cord was wrapped around her neck 3 times very tightly.

I was able to hold her before they took her away to clean and dress her. And she was beautiful, even with all the problems she had, she was beautiful. I touched her little hands and feet, and they were perfect.

I sat in my room with my mom for a few hours, reading over options for funeral/memorial services and whatnot. My dad called, and my mom told him, Morgan was with God.

We had Morgan Blessed (Baptized) by the Hospital Chaplin. We had pictures taken of the ceremony, and then took some afterwards of me holding Morgan and some of her in her little outfit and blanket.

After sometime with Morgan, I asked the nurse to take her away. I got a Pink Heart Shaped box, filled with her outfit, blanket, her hospital bracelet, a seashell (with what she was Blessed with), and an Eagle Pin.

Morgan is going to have an Autopsy done to see what else could have been wrong with her. After she is released from the Hospital, we are going to have her cremated so that she will be with us always.

Please don’t be sorry for me. I always said God has a plan for this baby, and he did. She is our Angel in heaven, and Morgan will protect us. I am happy, as strange as it sounds. But if you think about it-She would have never had a normal life. God never gives you anything you can’t handle, and God knows that Mitch and I are able to handle this loss.

Our Family

2009-08-16T15:10:00.000-07:00

Hello, my name is Renee, I am 20. My Fiance, Mitchell, 21, and I have been together for over 3 years. We are getting married on May 2010. Together we have a beautiful son, Riley Ernest Mitchell, 1 Year, he was born at 34.4wk on August 8, 2008. My son and I are alsoHELLP Sydrome/Preeclampisa Survivors.

On September 14, 2009, at 22 Weeks, I gave birth to Morgan Ann, 3.5 oz and 7.5 inches. She was beautiful. She was due January 18, 2010.
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Our Angel Morgan Ann

September 14, 2009

"A Moment in my Arms-A Lifetime in my Heart"

August 3rd
3 inches ∙ 3 ounces
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A u g u s t 8, 2 0 0 8 ∙ 4lbs 7.9 oz ∙ 17 1/4 inch

1 Y e a r ∙22lbs ∙30.5 inch
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♥ Mitchell & Renee ♥

"The most blessed partents in the World"

Meier Family

Remembering Morgan Ann

Morgan Ann's Birthstory

Our Family